When He's Gone

Hi! It's been a while, or was it 10,000 years ago since I last post? Tee hee!  A lot of things happened here and I'm still in the process of recovering. My dad was hospitalized in August 3rd. And then at 7 pm of September 13th, he went peacefully with the Lord. It was a hard battle for us, his children. When my mom passed away, I was the only family there (although my boyfriend then was with me and our helper), and then with my dad, I was the only one at the hospital, it was my schedule (the 4 of us siblings had a rotating schedule).

At my age, I realized, that it's difficult to mourn the way I'd like to mourn because I have a family to take care of, my daughter, my husband, my siblings and other relatives. People may say that they understand how I feel, but I doubt it. When I still have my both parents, I know that no matter how sad I am and how many times I say I know how people who mourn feels, I don't, I literally don't. Because I haven't experienced grieving. I haven't experienced loosing a loved one.

Happy Mother's Day

(created using That's Life by Melissa Bennett)

Happy Mother's Day to all of us parents!!! We all deserve this day to be special in our own family's special ways.

Ever since I became a mother, my husband showers me with flowers and simple treats that to me, are so big, sweet and touching. And I treasure all of those moments that he and my daughter are doing for three years now.

I'm happy being a mother. Each day, I learn a lot of things. I learn how to laugh more, to play again, to make my own colored chalk (thanks to Pinterest!). And I treasure every waking moments that I make mistakes. I learn from them.

I have always wished before for this time to come that I could celebrate mother's day with my mother. But I guess motherhood came late to me. She's now celebrating with the Lord. Here's a poem I found here.

I Still Miss Her

by Pam Shattu

It seems like only yesterday

I sent a Mother's Day card away

I didn't think it would be the last,

I signed it with love and mailed it fast.

Now that she's gone away,

It doesn't feel like mother's day.

There are no more chances to send a card,

To ship some flowers, to make call.

There's no more thanking her for all she's done.

No more visits.

No more fun.

I cannot hug her or kiss her cheek.

I cannot even share a laugh.

It all too quickly became a past.

I took each visit with her for granted.

I thought there'd always be more to come.

The camera lies still now

From her use and mine.

All the pictures have been taken,

All the memories have been made.

All the words have been spoken,

All the letters have been mailed.

The thing I miss the most of all

Has got to be her voice

Whether on the telephone or talking face to face.

I'd wish for one more conversation either here or at her place.

I know I'll see her again someday.

We'll share the sights of heaven.

We'll talk, we'll laugh, we'll hug.

We'll kiss... It'll be Mother's Day once more.

But until then, I'll be a mom for Mother's Day instead of

Being A Daughter.

Such a wonderful poem! Very well said.

So Many Things Too Little Time

Hi! Yup, I'm alive. After a year of hiatus I'm back. Actually, I never stopped blogging. I was busy blogging on my scrapbook blog and juggling between diaper changing, scrapbooking, running errands and cleaning the house. Family has eaten me alive and I completely embraced the fangs :)

We've been to many places I couldn't even imagine we have been to. I think it has been a "have baby will travel" for me and my husband, teehee! I would love to posts some of the beautiful places we have been and share with you all the happy and challenging moments we had.

(edited using pictapgo & typic)